This morning I weighed-in at 159. I lost 0.8 lbs this month and lost half an inch overall. I didn't lose as much as I would have liked to, but I'm happy to see the number on the scale going down.
I didn't do that great eating-wise at the beginning of the month (I had a few too many 'reward' meals -- I'm not perfect, it happens sometimes) but I got back on track and ate awesome the last half of the month. I even went vegetarian, sugarless and no-carbs for a week; it felt good. I totally believe in reward meals/snacks but I need to try to limit them to one day a week instead of just whenever because it adds up.
In other news, after 7-1/2 years of lots of crying, praying and hoping ... I'm PREGNANT! I'm a little over a month pregnant and the due date is early June. (My birthday month! -- Speaking of birthdays, Brad's 36th birthday is tomorrow and he couldn't ask for a better birthday present. Happy birthday, Babe!) Words cannot even begin to express how happy we are! We're still in shock. We just found out yesterday evening. I took three pregnancy tests and I'm still having trouble convincing myself. I know a lot of people wait to announce they're pregnant but I just couldn't wait; I've waited years to announce this! I have so many things going through my head from excitement to fears but I know my child and my pregnancy are in God's hands and that He is sovereign. All I need to do is trust Him and rest in that.
My trouble conceiving wasn't something I felt comfortable blogging about or even talking with many people about; it was a very sensitive subject. The main reason for me losing all this weight was in hopes of becoming pregnant because I thought my weight was playing a big part in my not getting pregnant; plus, I didn't want to be unhealthy and pregnant. A couple of months ago, I made an appointment to find out what was going on and then a day before my appointment, Brad and I had a talk and really felt led to continue to leave it in God's hands, knowing that He is the One Who opens and closes the womb and that He would bless me with a child in His perfect timing. He is SO faithful! Oh, and because I've been waiting for so long I've had names picked out for a long time. If it's a girl her name will be Emma Lee and if it's a boy his name will be Brady Scott (play on Bradley Scott). <3
My skin surgeries that I had planned for early next year are out the window. I'm gladly taking the trade-off! My best friend told me last night that I shouldn't gain any weight my first three months, so hopefully I can reach my goal of 155 before then. I'm not going to be one of those moms who use being pregnant as an excuse to eat tons of crap. I've worked way too hard to lose this weight. She also told me I shouldn't gain more than 30 lbs, which would put me at 190 at the end of my pregnancy. I definitely never want to see 200 again!
Please pray that I have a healthy pregnancy. Thank you!